On January 1st, I looked at the amount of progress remaining to be done before I could release the game’s official demo, and calculated that there was less than 2 months of work remaining. I planned to release Osana on February 14th – Valentine’s Day. Today is the day that Osana was going to be released…but it’s not happening.
Over the past 25 days, I’ve been subjected to the largest avalanche of hate and harassment that I’ve ever experienced. It’s several orders of magnitude worse than what I was put through in 2018, which prompted the Hate and Shame video. Every day, I consider making an “I quit, I can’t do this anymore!” video, because absolutely nothing is worth the amount of abuse that I’m receiving.
I was already morbidly depressed before this happened, but recent events have pushed me down to the lowest point I’ve ever been at. The severity of what I’ve been put through has completely killed my enthusiasm for the project and robbed me of all motivation to work on the game. It’s impossible to be productive under these circumstances. The only thing more difficult than finding a reason to keep working on Yandere Simulator is finding a reason to keep living.
The longest-ever gap between two of my videos was 50 days, occurring between the Live-Action Trailer and Guidance Counselor video. In 7 days, on Feb 21th, we’re unfortunately going to break that record. I’ll try to release something on March 1st, but I’m not sure if it’s going to be possible to find the energy required to make a video, when it’s already hard enough just to convince myself to get out of bed in the morning.
I fixed some bugs over the past couple of weeks, so I’ve uploaded a new build that is more stable than the last one. I’ll include a changelog later in this blog post.
On the bright side, I did get some cool fan art recently, which makes me feel a lot better. Here’s a really outstanding illustration from milkiii.tea:
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I love how this artwork from toxic-potato makes Akademi High feel active, energetic, and like it’s full of distinct characters who are each living a unique life:
I simply can’t get enough of dreamcharlie‘s art style, and I love the way she draws Yandere-chan:
This illustration from PastelUnicornElise makes Yandere-chan look so cute and charming!
Orion’s Waifu drew a very scary Yandere-chan:
AbbsWithAbs drew the ever-popular delinquent Yandere-chan:
DigiAndromeda drew a super-cute tiny bride Yandere-chan in a box:
And a few days after Valentine’s Day, I received this beautiful artwork from a Chinese fan called Yiki-chan:
Fixes, Changes, Additions
- If Yandere-chan is caught misbehaving by an authority figure (either a teacher or a student council member) and sent to the guidance counselor’s office while she is wearing a mask, she will be forced to remove the mask before speaking to the counselor.
- One of the accessories (a mask) had special functionality that was activated by the spacebar key. Because the spacebar is now used to open the map, I’ve changed the mask so that its functionality is activated by the left Alt key, instead.
- Fixed bug that would cause a teacher to freeze in place if she was a very long distance away from the player while she was supposed to be performing a “look at suspicious object on ground” animation.
- The hill with the mythical cherry tree behind the school has been reshaped to have a flat surface for the Art Club to stand on, so that it doesn’t need an ugly wooden platform attached to it.
- Fixed bug that allowed the player to make a student snap out of a “dying from poison” animation by aiming a camera at them while they were dying.
- Fixed bug that prevented any dialogue from displaying when Yandere-chan apologized to a student who witnessed her stealing something.
- Fixed bug that would allow players to “walk up the wall” in the Martial Arts Club, using the blue practice baton as a ramp.
- The canvases at the mythical tree hill will no longer appear if the Art Club is disbanded and isn’t going to use them.
- Entering a boy’s bathroom is now considered to be suspicious behavior that will damage your reputation.
- Fixed bug that would prevent collision detection from properly occuring in boys’ bathrooms.
- Fixed bug that would prevent Yandere-chan’s hair from appearing blonde while in her room.
- Fixed a rendering error with the plants in the Headmaster’s office.
- A new launcher is now available at https://yanderesimulator.com/download – this one should be much more reliable than the previous one!
Why does everything suck so badly right now?
Some people have a sadistic desire to abuse and mistreat others. In order to do these things, they first need to feel like they are justified in doing so. Once they believe that they have found valid justification for treating someone like trash, they become unable to view that person as a human who deserves compassion or empathy, choosing instead to view their target as nothing more than a receptacle for abuse and harassment.
Having justification to torment a victim is incredibly valuable to them. They receive intense pleasure from abusing and harassing a target, and they don’t want to lose that ability. Even if they were actually harassing an innocent person, they would refuse to acknowledge it. They would reject facts, truth, logic, reality, and counter-evidence, all in favor of continuing to believe in a false narrative that allows them justify cruelty and abuse.
There are people who have created a narrative that I’m a pedophile scam artist who can’t code and treats his fans badly. This narrative provides sadistic people with justification for treating me like garbage, so I’m an attractive target for anyone that enjoys acts of cruelty. I’m not actually a pedophile, I’m not actually a scam artist, I’m not actually a bad programmer, and I don’t actually treat my fans badly. I already debunked that stuff years ago.
However, the truth doesn’t matter. The only thing that matters is a narrative that permits sadistic people to abuse and harass a target.
375 thoughts on “Valentine’s Day Update”
i know im late and i’m really bad with words but ill do this anyways
i don’t know you. i don’t know anything about you. and neither do any of these people online. they’re calling a judgement on someone they have never even met personally. and that speaks volumes about the kind of people these guys are. judgey and cruel.
Take a break dude. If, so far, yan sim is your only reason you’re getting out of bed, if personal obligation to the internet is the only reason, that’s not really good. Go talk to someone. a close friend, a doctor, anyone in real life really. But not on the internet. As much as I hate to say it, sharing your personal feelings on here is just sharks smelling blood in the water. you’re gonna be attacked for it. That doesn’t mean you can’t speak your mind, I’d just advise that doing so is a double edged sword. you’ll get as many nice messages as mean ones.
This game means a lot to me. But if you need to drop it to be truly happy, I’d be okay with that. any true fan, or hell, any decent person would be too. No game is worth the creators life, even if its perfect. I may not know you, but what i do know is that no one deserves all of the horseshit that’s getting flung your way right now. I guess shitty people just like having someone to poke fun at to make themselves feel morally superior.
Stay strong, and take care of yourself. Sorry if this message comes across as rude, I tried not to be. I’m so excited for this game, and im pretty sure 2020 will be the year of Yandere Simulator. Keep up the good work, and remember that people are rooting for you, even if it doesn’t feel like it sometimes.
Even if he quit, it wouldn’t stop. In fact, it would only GET WORSE if he quit.
This includes taking his own life. He will still receive postmortem hate, and lots of it.
Can’t say I fully can understand the scope of your emotions. And if I were in your shoes I’d prolly feel insulted if someone claimed to. Your work is a piece of yourself and you are proud of it. But when someone attacks it, you may be feeling as if they were attacking you personally. But remember this, you are loved, and appreciated for everything you do. Keep up the amazing work, whenever you can. And do not let anyone judge you for what or how you do. And if you need another vacation or break, go for it. You are working with a unbelievably small team of developers to create a masterpiece. So take all the time you need, and stay safe! I wish the best for you and I look forward to hearing from you again in the future, whether its about the game or not.
Keep working on anything you feel that would be necessary. I don’t care if it takes another year to finish Osana, you’re doing great! 👍🏻
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the fact that people feel the need to bring other people down just pisses me off. Yandere dev can take all the time he needs. people may feel like they are safe over the internet because there is a screen barrier between you and the person who is getting harassed. would people do that if the barrier wasn’t there?
Yes. People would ABSOLUTELY drag other people down without the internet. It’s called “bullying”, and I have firsthand experience in just how nasty that is.
There isn’t a single day that goes by that I don’t think about what happened to me.
There isn’t a single day that goes by that I don’t hate SOMETHING. Especially myself.
Hey Yandere-Dev! I’ve been following the progress of your game for a long time now (it’s hard to believe, but it’s been almost five years now – Markiplier’s first video got me hooked). It’s been truly amazing seeing the progress you have made over time (through yours and Kubz Scouts/Jay’s videos). Sadly, this is the first time I’ve been on your WordPress, and this is the first post I read – prompting me to make an account just so I can say this: You are an amazing, caring person and do not deserve the hate you get from hive-minded gremlins. From what I’ve seen, you obviously care a lot about your fans and what they think (and feel) about you and your work. I don’t mean to pressure you by saying this, but I look forward to continuing to watch your progress over however long it takes for you to complete this project, and plan to spend even longer playing it up until and past that point. I know I’m just a random person on the internet, but please take care of yourself. If you need to rant, please type up a rant If you need a break, please take one.
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I’m not like those toxic and hateful fans. I personally think that the game slowly being updated is really exciting.
I feel so sorry about that harassment bullshit, I’m not one of those people, I’m a very kind person…
I wish you good luck working on your masterpiece: Yandere Simulator
YandereDev is not a bad person, I don’t understand why so many people hate him, other than rumors and lies. These haters are just straight up pissing me off with their bullshit.
YandereDev deserves better treatment than all this hate.
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I’ve seen people straight up make calls to action to kidnap, kill, or even rape Yanderedev. The hatewagon is truly disgusting and it pisses me off how little compassion these people have.
What would happen if they actually DID that, though?
I don’t think the hate would end if the hatedom ended him.
It’s too large, a self-sustaining cycle at this point.
It functions independently of him.