Osana’s not finished yet. She should have been finished by now. I owe you an explanation. That’s what this blog post is about.
I have a lot to say about the situation. How much? Well, this blog post is over 3,300 words long. That should give you an idea.
Scroll down past this fan-art by Akihito_Draws and click “Continue Reading” to get started.
43 seconds into this video from January 16th, 2017, I made a vague comment about how “a lot of stuff […] going on in my personal life […] took up a lot of my time, and took a lot of my attention away from Yandere Simulator”. I never divulged the details, but now that the situation is practically mainstream knowledge, I have to talk about it.
Starting around January 2017, I began to receive massive amounts of harassment. This was the point in time when people began to:
- Prank call my phone
- Send weird things to my house
- Post my personal information online
- Make attempts to hack into my accounts
- Send me lengthy essays telling me why I should kill myself
- Flag all of my social media to try to get my accounts banned
- Try to convince my team members to stop contributing to the project
- Submit false reports to the police in an attempt to get the SWAT team to show up at my house
- Spam me with gifs of people being killed, dead bodies, pictures of mutilated genitals, gore, scat porn, bestiality, animal abuse, gifs of animals getting killed, etc.
Many content creators receive harassment, but what people have been doing to me has gone far above and beyond what a person usually experiences on the Internet. I wish I could be an emotionless robot or a solid stone wall that is not affected by this stuff, but the truth is that, yes, it has affected me. Receiving all kinds of abuse and mistreatment on a daily basis gradually reduced my mental health, resulting in depression, lost enthusiasm, lost motivation, and most importantly, lost productivity.
If I had to explain it with a graph, it would look like this:
In 2016, my productivity was great; I was kicking ass and working fast. In 2017, my productivity fell like a rock as a result of the harassment I was receiving. The harassment continued throughout 2018, so my productivity stayed low. In 2019, the harassment subsided, and my productivity began to return. But, in 2020, a new wave of harassment began, and so my productivity plummeted like a rock.
I cannot possibly overstate how much of an impact the harassment has had on development. If this year had never seen a spike in harassment, I would have finished Osana in February and released her by Valentine’s Day. Actually, if the harassment had never begun back in January of 2017, you probably would have gotten Osana in early 2019.
So, what caused the harassment to begin in the first place, what caused it to continue for multiple years, and what caused it to become so widespread?
The answer to all three questions is the same thing: Misinformation. People are constantly saying things that aren’t true – things that cause them to feel justified in treating me like garbage.
“Yandere Simulator is made entirely of stolen assets!”
Not even true. When Yandere Simulator was an early prototype, I temporarily used a small number of models that came from other games, as placeholders. These models were always a very small minority of all assets in the game. I never intended to use them for long, I have already replaced all of them, and at this point in time, Yandere Simulator is now composed of 1% store-bought assets and 99% original assets created specifically for Yandere Sim. Also, I always removed placeholder assets immediately if the original creator ever asked me to.
“YandereDev streams video games all day long instead of working!”
Not even true. You can visit my Twitch channel and see the length of each stream; they’re short. It doesn’t make sense to make a big stink about this, anyway. It’s perfectly normal for people to come home after work and enjoy a leisure activity before going to bed; that’s daily life for millions of people all over the world. There is nothing weird about playing video games for a little while after the workday has ended.
“YandereDev fired a tinyBuild programmer because he couldn’t understand his code!”
Not even true. I never “fired” anyone, and I had no problem understanding the tinyBuild programmer’s code; the problem was that there wasn’t much work for him to do, since we couldn’t refactor the game while I was still adding features in order to maintain a regular upload schedule on YouTube. I explained the whole situation in detail here.
“YandereDev doesn’t credit his volunteers!”
Not even true. The game has a credits screen, where every volunteer is credited. That’s literally the opposite of not crediting people.
“YandereDev wants to include a rape feature in Yandere Simulator!”
“YandereDev wants to kill his parents!”
Not even true. I made an edgy post when I was a teenage kid, but that was 16 years ago. Obviously, any post that old shouldn’t be taken seriously.
“YandereDev wrote an erotic story about rape!”
Not even true. I planned to write a story about a rape victim who became a vigilante that killed rapists and child molesters. The story began with the protagonist being raped. I never finished the story, but you can tell from reading the rape scene that I intended to portray rape and rapists as absolutely disgusting, not erotic.
“YandereDev portrayed himself as a cute, innocent girl in order to gain sympathy!”
Not even true. The purpose of my Hate and Shame video was to ask people “Imagine how you would feel in this situation.” My YouTube analytics page tells me that the majority of my audience is female, so I made the protagonist female to make it easier for my audience to relate to her.
“YandereDev portrays his critics as demons!”
Not even true. The grey gremlins in my Hate and Shame video represent people who stalk, dox, and harass others over the Internet – not critics.
“YandereDev kills Midori because she represents his fans and he hates his fans!”
Not even true. Midori represents the concept of a ditzy person asking silly questions with obvious answers. Not fans. I “kill” her in my videos because it became a goofy running gag.
“YandereDev spends all day reading e-mails instead of working on the game!”
Not even true. There was a brief period of time in 2016 when e-mails ate up a huge chunk of my time, but it hasn’t been that way for years.
“YandereDev is intentionally prolonging the game’s development to make as much money as possible from Patreon!”
Not even true. That doesn’t even make sense in the first place. I almost never mention my Patreon at all; if my goal was to make money through Patreon, I would be promoting it constantly. Furthermore, prolonging a game’s development would only serve to anger the supporters, resulting in less money. This narrative falls apart after 2 seconds of thinking about it with common sense.
“YandereDev defends pedophiles! YandereDev believes that pedophilia is a sexual orientation!”
Not even true. People seem to have developed this impression by completely misinterpreting some random remarks I made when I was arguing with someone in 2014. I made those remarks largely because the person I was arguing with was frustrating me, and I just wanted to be contrarian towards them. I compared mental illness and sexual orientation because they have one similarity: a person has control over neither of those things. This was not a statement that pedophilia is a sexual orientation.
“YandereDev wants to abolish the age of consent and replace it with a “sex license”!”
Not even true. The same answer from above applies here as well. During that argument from 2014, I focused on trying to contradict my opponent so I could feel like I was “winning” the argument. At some point, the discussion turned to a hypothetical thought experiment about a “test” that could accurately measure someone’s level of mental development to determine whether or not they had mentally reached adulthood, and could be trusted to engage in sexual activity. My casual speculation about the effectiveness of this hypothetical test should obviously should not be taken as an indication that I actually want to abolish the age of consent.
“YandereDev refuses to accept programming assistance!”
Not even true. I am currently accepting programming assistance from multiple programmers, and have always welcomed programming assistance throughout development.
“YandereDev bans people and blocks people when they post an image he’s insecure about!”
Not even true. On January 20th, 2020, while I was sleeping, someone came to my Discord server and posted unflattering pictures of me from when I was a teenage boy, in an attempt to troll. This person got banned by moderators, and then went on Twitter to say, “YandereDev banned me for posting his face!” This caused tens of thousands of people to come to my Discord server purely to post my face, under the belief that it would make me angry. They all got banned for spamming, which cemented the false narrative that I was personally banning people because I was insecure about an old photo. By the time I woke up and got out of bed, there were tweets about the situation with 40k likes. False narratives run wild on the Internet.
“YandereDev uses the Patreon money for personal purchases!”
Weird narrative. The Patreon money was always my salary for working on the game, not the game’s budget. I was transparent about this from Day 1. Once I started earning beyond $3.5k per month on Patreon, I started putting the surplus money towards Yandere Sim. I stated this extremely clearly in the “Goals” section on my Patreon page. Every year, I log how the money is spent in “Transparency” posts. Even with that said, every personal purchase I make is made with my savings from before I even started working on Yandere Sim.
“YandereDev owes tinyBuild money!”
Not even true. When tinyBuild and I parted ways, the final draft of the termination agreement did not involve any debts.
“YandereDev doesn’t think games improve from criticism!”
Not even true. In this screenshot, I am not replying to the guy with the cat avatar. I am replying to a completely different guy whose message was not included within the screenshot.
“YandereDev is a bad programmer!”
The code in Yandere Sim was written hastily so I could maintain a rapid upload schedule for YouTube. That code was written to facilitate YouTube videos, not to serve as the game’s final code. It doesn’t reflect my idea of how to write efficient code. It doesn’t even matter, because the plan has always been to hire a programmer to replace me and re-write my code, anyway. I explained this in thorough detail in a video from 2018, and everyone seems to have completely forgotten about it. I wrote a longer explanation here: https://yanderesimulator.com/CodeExplanation.txt
“YandereDev’s code is bad because of if-else statements!”
Clickbait YouTubers have exaggerated about how bad if-else statements are in order to make sensational, scandalous videos. if-else statements aren’t even a big deal, and do not actually have a significant impact on framerate. Real programmers can easily explain all of the ways in which these YouTubers have gotten their facts wrong.
“Someone re-created Yandere Simulator in less than 2 weeks!”
Not even true. Someone extracted Yandere Simulator’s assets and used those assets to develop a simple game prototype. They created an announcement trailer showing off what they had done. Despite the fact that their prototype only contains a fraction of the functionality of Yandere Simulator, their announcement trailer gave hundreds of thousands of people the false impression that it was possible to “re-create” the entirety of Yandere Sim in only two weeks.
The only reason that their prototype looks even remotely presentable is because they simply copy-pasted all of the assets that were created for me over the course of 6 years. (Not store-bought assets, but Yandere Simulator’s original, copyrighted assets.) They created nothing original, and simply stole all of my material. It’s the most blatant theft I’ve ever seen in the history of the game industry.
Because hundreds of thousands of people were tricked into believing that it’s possible to re-create Yandere Sim within two weeks, my work has been completely devalued, I have begun to receive a massive amount of harassment, and I have started to lose all of the support that I had spent 6 years building up.
This is not a case of “another developer is making a superior game!” but is a case of a con artist is pulling a scam that is tricking hundreds of thousands of people into hating me.
“YandereDev threatened to commit suicide to pressure a game developer into cancelling his game project!”
Not even true. I spoke to the guy who ripped my assets, and explained to him that his project was causing people to harass me and pull their financial support from me, as a result of being tricked by his misleading video and misleading statements. During the discussion, I expressed my feelings honestly. I told him that I felt his actions were “ruining my life,” “destroying my life,” “ending my life,” etc. This somehow got spun into a narrative that I “threatened suicide,” even though I never actually said anything like that.
This is the screenshot that people use in order to push this false narrative. There is not a single sentence there where I “threaten suicide”. It simply doesn’t happen. In case you need me to spell it out for you, the meaning of the last sentence is, “If Yandere Simulator would ruin/destroy someone’s life and end their career, I would cancel Yandere Sim.”
“YandereDev deletes comments because he can’t take criticism!”
And here we are at last. Here’s where we get to the heart of the situation.
Whenever I saw people spreading misinformation – like all of the false narratives I just debunked up above – I recognized that these untrue accusations had the potential to do severe damage to my reputation. So, I blocked/banned anyone who spread misinfo, and deleted their messages.
When people saw negative messages disappearing, they assumed that I was “censoring criticism”. That’s not the case; I was simply deleting falsehoods. You can’t call something “criticism” if it isn’t even true in the first place. However, “YandereDev can’t take criticism” is a more entertaining and scandalous narrative than “YandereDev prevents the spread of misinformation,” so that’s the narrative that people went with.
“YandereDev, I heard a rumor about you that you didn’t address here!”
I’m not trying to debunk EVERY false narrative here, I’m just giving you a sense of the crap I have to deal with. If there is something else you want debunked, go here: https://yanderesimulator.com/debunk/
By now, you get the point, right? There is no end to the false narratives and untrue accusations that other people create about me. I’m not trying to sound melodramatic here, but I feel like it’s not an exaggeration to say that I’m at the center of the largest misinformation campaign that has ever occurred in the history of the game industry. I can’t think of a single game developer who has ever been targeted like this before.
All of the misinformation above was picked up and spread by clickbait YouTubers who made tabloid-style videos demonizing me and vilifying me, causing hundreds of thousands of people to develop false perceptions of me. And, after hundreds of thousands of people were tricked into believing that I am an evil villain who deserves mistreatment, harassment skyrocketed and productivity plummeted.
“But, YandereDev! There are screenshots and video clips proving that you’re a bad guy!”
You can have a real screenshot of something that really happened, and you can use it to paint a completely exaggerated picture of someone – like many of the things I debunked above.
Imagine that I have a photo of you drinking a beer; this doesn’t prove that you’re an alcoholic. But a dishonest clickbait YouTuber would probably hold up the photo and claim you’re drinking beer 24/7, all for the sake of getting clicks, views, and precious, previous ad revenue. This is basically what happened to me, but on a much larger scale.
“Why don’t you just stop checking social media?”
Way ahead of you. I stopped using social media years ago. But, I still need to use e-mail and Discord to talk to volunteers and recruit new volunteers. So, there is always a flood of harassment to see every day, even when I keep my exposure to the Internet as minimal as possible.
So, now you understand the situation I’m in. The next thing you have to be aware of is that, when you are put into a situation like this, you become incapable of thinking about anything else, and spend all of your time with very dark thoughts:
- It’s hopeless.
- Why even bother?
- I don’t deserve this.
- It’s all pointless now.
- Maybe I should just die.
- How could this happen?
- I may as well not even try.
- If I die, this will all go away.
- Why did this have to happen?
- I don’t have a future anymore.
- How can these people be so cruel?
- What’s the point in trying anymore?
- I didn’t even do anything all that bad.
- My life has been completely ruined forever.
- After this, I can’t have a normal life anymore.
- Everything I’ve worked for has been destroyed.
- The only way this is ever going to end is if I die.
- There is absolutely no way to recover from this.
- None of this should have happened in the first place.
- I’m not a robot! Of course I’ll get emotional sometimes!
- How can anybody do something like this to another human being?
- This will last forever. This is my life now. This is never going to end.
- This pain and suffering and misery isn’t going to go away until I’m dead.
- This sucks worse than anything else that has ever happened to me in my life.
- Millions of people have been tricked into believing things about me that aren’t even true.
When those are the only thoughts that are swirling around in your head, every waking moment of every day, you can’t exactly focus on work. The majority of your time is spent asking yourself, “If my future has been completely destroyed, why should I even bother?” and struggling to motivate yourself to get work done. You can be sitting at your computer with your fingers on your keyboard, and yet you can find yourself completely unable to type a single letter, as a result of being too depressed and miserable to lift a finger.
“So, what now?”
I can’t think of anyone who has ever been put into a comparable situation, and managed to recover. Once you have been labeled as “This person doesn’t deserve any empathy or compassion and it’s perfectly okay to abuse them as much as you want,” it’s pretty much over. That’s a lifelong label, even if you don’t actually deserve it.
Developing a video game is pointless, if nobody is going to support your game because they’ve been brainwashed into believing in a false version of you that isn’t even real. Thus, if your reputation is being tarnished by false narrative, debunking the untrue accusations becomes a higher priority than game development.
I don’t want to make videos about anything but game development. However, my only hope might be to create a video (or multiple videos) going point-by-point down the list of every single false narrative and systematically debunking them all one-by-one, with receipts whenever possible. However, even if I release a video that successfully dismantles every false thing people say about me, there is a still a chance that it won’t do me any good, for one very simple reason:
If you really, really enjoy the sensation of ridiculing and shaming other people over the Internet, you’ll just plug your ears and dismiss everything I have to say in my defense, and continue believing whatever mistruths you wish to believe in, so you can continue to feel justified in engaging in all the fun harassment that you enjoy. There is literally nothing I can do to stop that.
Harassment isn’t the only problem, either. The Anti-YandereDev community convinces my fans to stop financially supporting me, putting me beneath the poverty line and putting my future in jeopardy. The Anti-YandereDev community even hacks my accounts and sabotages the game’s development in various ways. Every day, there is some new drama that other people have created, some new mess to clean up – something else that takes my time away from Osana.
Under the circumstances described above, is it really any wonder why the game is taking 6 years to develop? It was always going to take a long time because of its ambitious nature, but let’s be real here: it probably would have been finished by now if it wasn’t for all the problems that other people created for me.
Depression, lost motivation, lost enthusiasm, acts of sabotage, minutely hatemail, constant harassment, character assassination, lost financial stability, drama being forced onto me every day – each one of these things slows me down like a heavy weight tied to my body, causing me to progress forward at a snail’s pace instead of moving at my maximum speed.
And that is my explanation for why Osana isn’t out yet. Maybe by August 1st.
Scroll down for a list of bug fixes in the latest build.
Fixes, Changes, Additions
This list is especially short, because I’ve been focusing 90% of my time on Osana and only 10% on other things within the game.
- At the end of the intro sequence, some images rapidly flash onscreen. Those images were screenshots from the Rival Introduction Video that I uploaded in 2016. Actually, in some of those screenshots, you could see 3D models that came from other video games! Oops! Those 3D models were removed from Yandere Simulator a looooong time ago, but I still can’t feature those screenshots in the game; that’d be a copyright violation. The offending screenshots have been replaced with new ones. Now there should be absolutely zero copyrighted content in Yandere Sim. If you actually find a copyrighted model somewhere in the game, please contact me about it immediately!
- Someone recently informed me that Yandere Simulator’s FPS display was inaccurate, and was displaying a number lower than the game’s actual FPS. I am now using an FPS counter supplied directly by Unity, so the FPS number should now be as accurate as possible. It turns out that the game’s actual framerate was about 5 FPS better than what that number was reporting this whole time, haha!
- Fixed bug that prevented Yandere-chan’s character model from showing her new hair color after the player dyed her hair outside of home and school (for example, in the street or in the Kokona Befriend/Betray cutscene).
- Fixed bug that would cause a student’s corpse to burst into flames when being removed from a locker, if that student had died from being set on fire earlier in the day.
- Fixed bug that would cause students to fail to recognize severed limbs if those limbs were inside of a cello case (with its lid open, exposing its contents).
- Fixed bug that made the game fail to activate Yandere-chan’s Club Benefit at the start of the day, if her club benefit was the Occult Club’s benefit.
- Fixed bug that made the game fail to activate the benefit that comes from reading horror manga books (less sanity decrease when committing murder).
- The Light Music Club / Martial Arts Club will no longer be willing to “Practice” (play music or spar) if it’s lunchtime or cleaning time.
- Fixed bug that would prevent a teacher from noticing a pool of blood while investigating a report of a corpse.
- Fixed bug that would allow the player to dip a mop into any bucket at any time, even if the bucket was empty.
- Fixed bug that would cause camera problems if the player was tazed by the headmaster while crawling.
- Fixed bug that would prevent the player from using the same door as a bucket trap twice in one day.
- Lowered volume of “power up” sound effect when using one of the Gaming Club’s computers.
- Fixed bug that prevented the Martial Arts Club’s benefit from functioning.
- The manga store and game store on the street now have background music.
- Kokona’s Befriend/Betray cutscene now has background music!
- Reduced the filesize of some files that were way too huge.
- Updated Saki Miyu’s hair texture.