Valentine’s Day Update

On January 1st, I looked at the amount of progress remaining to be done before I could release the game’s official demo, and calculated that there was less than 2 months of work remaining. I planned to release Osana on February 14th – Valentine’s Day. Today is the day that Osana was going to be released…but it’s not happening.

Over the past 25 days, I’ve been subjected to the largest avalanche of hate and harassment that I’ve ever experienced. It’s several orders of magnitude worse than what I was put through in 2018, which prompted the Hate and Shame video. Every day, I consider making an “I quit, I can’t do this anymore!” video, because absolutely nothing is worth the amount of abuse that I’m receiving.

I was already morbidly depressed before this happened, but recent events have pushed me down to the lowest point I’ve ever been at. The severity of what I’ve been put through has completely killed my enthusiasm for the project and robbed me of all motivation to work on the game. It’s impossible to be productive under these circumstances. The only thing more difficult than finding a reason to keep working on Yandere Simulator is finding a reason to keep living.

The longest-ever gap between two of my videos was 50 days, occurring between the Live-Action Trailer and Guidance Counselor video. In 7 days, on Feb 21th, we’re unfortunately going to break that record. I’ll try to release something on March 1st, but I’m not sure if it’s going to be possible to find the energy required to make a video, when it’s already hard enough just to convince myself to get out of bed in the morning.

I fixed some bugs over the past couple of weeks, so I’ve uploaded a new build that is more stable than the last one. I’ll include a changelog later in this blog post.

On the bright side, I did get some cool fan art recently, which makes me feel a lot better. Here’s a really outstanding illustration from milkiii.tea:

Click “Continue Reading” for more.

I love how this artwork from toxic-potato makes Akademi High feel active, energetic, and like it’s full of distinct characters who are each living a unique life:

I simply can’t get enough of dreamcharlie‘s art style, and I love the way she draws Yandere-chan:

This illustration from PastelUnicornElise makes Yandere-chan look so cute and charming!

Orion’s Waifu drew a very scary Yandere-chan:

AbbsWithAbs drew the ever-popular delinquent Yandere-chan:

DigiAndromeda drew a super-cute tiny bride Yandere-chan in a box:

And a few days after Valentine’s Day, I received this beautiful artwork from a Chinese fan called Yiki-chan:

Fixes, Changes, Additions

  • If Yandere-chan is caught misbehaving by an authority figure (either a teacher or a student council member) and sent to the guidance counselor’s office while she is wearing a mask, she will be forced to remove the mask before speaking to the counselor.
  • One of the accessories (a mask) had special functionality that was activated by the spacebar key. Because the spacebar is now used to open the map, I’ve changed the mask so that its functionality is activated by the left Alt key, instead.
  • Fixed bug that would cause a teacher to freeze in place if she was a very long distance away from the player while she was supposed to be performing a “look at suspicious object on ground” animation.
  • The hill with the mythical cherry tree behind the school has been reshaped to have a flat surface for the Art Club to stand on, so that it doesn’t need an ugly wooden platform attached to it.
  • Fixed bug that allowed the player to make a student snap out of a “dying from poison” animation by aiming a camera at them while they were dying.
  • Fixed bug that prevented any dialogue from displaying when Yandere-chan apologized to a student who witnessed her stealing something.
  • Fixed bug that would allow players to “walk up the wall” in the Martial Arts Club, using the blue practice baton as a ramp.
  • The canvases at the mythical tree hill will no longer appear if the Art Club is disbanded and isn’t going to use them.
  • Entering a boy’s bathroom is now considered to be suspicious behavior that will damage your reputation.
  • Fixed bug that would prevent collision detection from properly occuring in boys’ bathrooms.
  • Fixed bug that would prevent Yandere-chan’s hair from appearing blonde while in her room.
  • Fixed a rendering error with the plants in the Headmaster’s office.
  • A new launcher is now available at https://yanderesimulator.com/download – this one should be much more reliable than the previous one!

Why does everything suck so badly right now?

Some people have a sadistic desire to abuse and mistreat others. In order to do these things, they first need to feel like they are justified in doing so. Once they believe that they have found valid justification for treating someone like trash, they become unable to view that person as a human who deserves compassion or empathy, choosing instead to view their target as nothing more than a receptacle for abuse and harassment.

Having justification to torment a victim is incredibly valuable to them. They receive intense pleasure from abusing and harassing a target, and they don’t want to lose that ability. Even if they were actually harassing an innocent person, they would refuse to acknowledge it. They would reject facts, truth, logic, reality, and counter-evidence, all in favor of continuing to believe in a false narrative that allows them justify cruelty and abuse.

There are people who have created a narrative that I’m a pedophile scam artist who can’t code and treats his fans badly. This narrative provides sadistic people with justification for treating me like garbage, so I’m an attractive target for anyone that enjoys acts of cruelty. I’m not actually a pedophile, I’m not actually a scam artist, I’m not actually a bad programmer, and I don’t actually treat my fans badly. I already debunked that stuff years ago.

However, the truth doesn’t matter. The only thing that matters is a narrative that permits sadistic people to abuse and harass a target.

268 thoughts on “Valentine’s Day Update

  1. Stay strong and try to ignore all the hate. I dont know why so many people are hating when you are trying your best. I just hope people will understand someday that there is only 1 person working on Yandere sim and it will take some time. I am looking forward to Yandere sim but if you need a break or decide to not continue I will 100% understand. I hope you feel better.

  2. Yandere Dev…i know this probs wont help you feel any better…after all im just some random person who doesnt really know anything at all..but think about this…you said it would only be around two months until Osana would be released…or around that…TWO…thats it…If you said you would be launching a kickstarter…Im pretty sure all of us here would be fine with you releasing a slightly buggy osana a bit earlier or doing the kickstarter a tad bit earlier.If you feel like you need to then as long as people are ok with it then maybe you could do it a bit earlier…whatever you want to do.Its your game.Good luck Yandere Dev.

    • And if it makes you feel any better you have inspired me to make my own little project.Sure im just some dumb teenager who has no idea what the hell he is doing…but still!Its the idea that you inspired someone to make their own thing!Again probs wont help but still!

  3. I am so sorry that anyone would ever treat you so awful- you really don’t deserve that. It’ll get better soon, I know that right now it seems like you should give up, but that is never the answer. And even though there are people who think they have the right to treat you like this. I guarantee there are far more people that value you and love you and all of your work! I know how you feel, but it. will. get. better.

  4. YandereDev, I can’t relate to what you’re going through too much, but I know how it feels to be at your absolute lowest point, to feel as if no matter what you do or say it’s not enough, and to struggle to find a reason to keep going. I feel for you as a human being and I just want you to know that you’re not alone. You’ll always have people who will support you, people you can talk to, and reasons to laugh or smile. To quote from Kingdom Hearts: “Even in the deepest darkness, there is always a light”, whether that be the fan-art that you clearly love so much, a game you can play for fun, or even just one person you can vent to. Please don’t lose your light. There are people who are cheering for you and who will be with you no matter what. Thank you for sharing the development of Yandere Simulator.

  5. Bonjour YandereDev, je me permets d’écrire un commentaire pour vous soutenir car moi aussi je sais ce que c’est d’être harcelé, d’après ce que j’ai lu sur votre blog, vous en êtes au plus bas, mais ces personnes qui vous insultent sont des ordures, ils se permettent de vous insulter, de vous rabaisser, alors qu’ils jouent certainement à votre jeu Yandere Simulator, c’est normal qu’il y ait quelques bugs, mais regardez combien de bugs vous avez corrigés, vous pouvez comprendre ça de plusieurs façons, je ne reproche pas qu’il y ait des bugs, justement, je vous félicite car vous avez pu en corriger énormément, il restera toujours des bugs, mais ça se corrige, tout le monde fait des erreurs, même les plus grands ! OUI, vous faites partie des meilleurs ! Je sais que c’est difficile d’ignorer les rageux, les jaloux, mais essayez au moins, bien évidemment, je suis persuadée que vous essayez déjà, courage, pour votre vie et continuez s’il vous plaît de développer Yandere Simulator, beaucoup de personnes se plaignent que ça fait trois ans qu’on attend Osana, mais ne vous inquiétez pas, nous préférons attendre un peu plus et avoir des mises à jour plus courtes mais plus fréquentes qu’attendre 1 an sans mise à jour, si ils ne sont pas contents, qu’ils arrêtent de jouer au jeu ! C’est votre jeu, pas le leur ! Voilà, désolée de vous avoir dérangé, bon courage ! ❤️

  6. Hi yanderedev, I know it’s already been a few days since you posted this but I guess I just want to add my voice to all the people telling you we care about you and hate to see you going through this. I’ve also been struggling with depression for years but I can’t claim to know what it must be like for you to receive all this abuse and harassment. I (and a lot of other people) have noticed this sort of trend in anime/fandom spaces of younger people entertaining themselves by accusing innocent people of being pedos, scammers, etc. like you described. I don’t know why it’s happening and I don’t know how to stop it. I really, really wish I knew how to fix this because it is absolutely poisoning this community that’s supposed to be about having fun. I just don’t know what else to say besides… I’m sorry this is happening to you. You don’t deserve this.

  7. Hi, Dear Yanderedev

    I don’t know if you will read my comment, and you can say that my wrotes are stupid, that i’m just look like silly, like if i’m here to make drama… i will never be mad at it, it’s ok. But i think it’s time for me to act, stop being silent, just pop up to say how much i am grateful to you. And i certified that all i am writting are true.

    (I even create an account just to post this comment!)

    I know, i will make a lot of mistakes, but, i do my best in english! And, Please everyone, don’t be rude at me!
    And.. yes, i think it will be a looong long everlasting comment… sorry to make wasting your precious time Yanderedev (if you read it, of course)

    Without knowing absolutely nothing, Yanderedev you are a savior for me. Your game save my mind, my life, and your blog post of developpement improve my english like never any english teacher in France can do.

    Lemme explain! 😀

    I am…. a weird person. Unnable to make easely some friends, because I’m NOT normal. I have an autistic syndrome nammed “Asperger”. (And i only know that i have this, this years. It took me 23 years to finaly have a diagnostic!!) But i was raised like a normal person, in a normal world, with normal people.
    So, each school years, even if I was just alone, run to library at each breaks of the day, and don’t speak with someone, i was just… always the “weird poor girl who is always bullied because it’s funny”. Each years all my classmate always make fun at me: insult, laught at me, ashamed, beat me, reject me, etc… i always think about suicide, but i never do a thing about that. I got depress a lot of time, but i manage to always give an image of “having a good day”.

    One day (in 2015), i discovered an article wich speak about yandere sim “this game learns you how to kill someone without being noticed”. What the fuck is that? It’s looked so crazy! But… i upload the game, and play. It was so funny! So, every time i had a bad day, i played. This game release my stress. And without this stress… i started to feel better. And, i slowly stopped to think about bad things. It saved my mind, It saved my life.

    Do you know that? France are a terrible country if you want to learn how to speak english or another language. Well: in my case, i had a teacher who was ever … never here. I one year, This absent teacher never give us a proper lesson. And, even if i had other teacher, in a class of 25-30 pupils who doesn’t want to work… you just CAN’T work and learn anything. So… for long long looong time i was never able to make a proper speech or text in english.

    By upload the game, i discovered this blog post (wich i never ever comment before today). The fact that you always triying to uptade this game 2 times in a month gave me reading. Your videos, (that i wasn’t able to understand what you was saiyed on before), i watch them. And re-watch. I never stop to re-re-re-re-rewatching your videos. Absolutely ALL of them! I even watch Deolink and Squeezi giving a french translation of your videos, and you know what? It gave me a real intense training in english! I’ve become more confident in this language, and i even tried other games all in english, like Undertale! From my 5/20 (very bad note) when i was 12 years old, now, at my 23 years old, i had a 20/20 in english at my diploma! Do you believed that? I CAN’T! Just… woah look ho much lines of text i wrote! This is so crazy! I can’t believe that i was so bad before! Your efforts gave me an incomensurable treasure: the liberty to speak, and understand, in no matter what language it is. (But yeah, i do some mistakes)

    Can you imagine how thankfull and gratefull i am? You even inspired me, i wan’t to make video games, but i never do that, so i don’t know how to programming… but, if i try, and create a video game, will i be able to share some little sparkles of joy like you did?

    If bad things happens to you, you have the right to just slow down. Take a break, go on hollidays, eat chocolate, see friends, do whatever you want, if that makes you feel better. You are precious. Not only for me, but for us. Real fan will understand that you need to rest. For me, it’s okay, that’s fine. You can even take the best long break of your life and release Osana on the game 6 years after today, or even if you never release her it’s okay too! I will wait, like the other true fans. So take your time, but, please, care about yourself at first.
    We all loves you, and be at your side. You are the best!

    • That’s awesome! I have Asperger’s Syndrome as well (I was also diagnosed at age 23!! What a bizarre coincidence…), and I know how hard it can be some days.

      Let me know you need someone to help you practice English, or if you just need to chat 🙂

      • Bonjour! 😀

        Woah, that’s so strange, what a coincidence! XD

        Well, the two solutions will just help me to learn and practice. But more important: if you see mistakes, i will be glad if you warn me, and gave me some explanations. I need to learn how to have a correct language 🙂

  8. please continue with the game i think you’re brilliant and have been such a huge inspiration to me and others in my computer science classes.
    its thanks to you I want to pursue a career in video game development so please please continue, don’t give up.

  9. Strength, Yanderedev. The voices of those who hate are a lot louder and frequent than those of us who silently watch your progress with a smile. We’re here too, we’re just a lot quieter by nature.

  10. Oh my! Dude! I know of depression (struggling myself) and by the looks of it, I would strongly advice you to honor your mind and body and take a looooooong deserved break!!!! (Even a year if you need that!)
    Forget about other people for a moment and FOR THE LOVE OF GOD FOCUS ON YOURSELF! If you get demotivated and depressed about this it sooooooo is NOT WORTH IT!
    Please don’t force yourself to work on something that no longer brings you joy at the moment.

  11. hi Yanderedev..
    keep up the good work, you’re doing great! we will wait for the necessary time about the release of osana, so don’t worry!

  12. I know that is not of my bussiness or anything but I think that you should stay strong and don’t listen to those people that make your life impossible, take it how it is: a bunch of nobodys jealous of your work, they think that making you feel like garbaje will make you to stop doing what you like and that’s what you have to aviod. Don’t listen to them, I know how hard it is but just focus on what really matters, and never stop following your dreams!
    It doesn’t matter if you can’t release Osana right now, focus on going back to normal, your true fans will wait paciently. After all, we’ve been waiting until now right?
    PS: sorry for my bad english :p

  13. Please stay strong Yanderedev! you got a great project and it would be a great loss if you quit! Beside those haters you got a whole community who is with you and wishe you the best! And maybe after you released Osana you could take a break from work, even internet, for a while? Either way in the actual situation the most important thing is not what others think, what important is YOU and your mental health so please don’t listen those gremlins, take care of yourself and remember that all your fans are behind you! ^_^

  14. I feel sorry for your awful experience. We know how much you’ve put into this project and how awsome the game is. Maybe it’s time to take a rest, we will wait for the update until you feel better? After all, your well-being is the most important thing. Thank you for all your hard work and I wish you a pleasant day.

  15. You are one of my game dev heroes; no lie. I’m a hobby developer trying to get into more serious game making and following your work has been a huge inspiration. Watching how this project has grown and continues to grow from a rough tech demo. Fuck the haters. You do good work and you work hard. You. Kick. Ass. Yandere Sim is my personal goal for what I want my own solo projects to look like.

    Take care of yourself, keep it up, and don’t stop rocking.

  16. Honestly, I dont know if you are getting help, but please, if you haven´t, go for it. We can wait for the release of osana. And all those who made those videos about you are just looking for attention, sadly you were unlucky enough to become the target. Most of the commenters are people who can´t have an opinion for themselves. You earned my greatest respect for working on this project so ambitiously and inspired so many people to do the same.

  17. Yandere Dev Yandere Dev!

    You can’t give up where you’re at right now! Stupid losers that are calling you those things are just jealous of you that you’re able to make a fully functional game by yourself, without a team of people! Don’t listen to those a**holes, you don’t deserve to stop 8 years of work because of them.

    I don’t know what happened in your personal life that’s making you feel even worse, but I’ll assure you, I’ll get better soon. I used to be suicidal – it was hard, as I took it all in of what people said about me and made it who I was. But my friend found me cutting myself and told me that there is NO reason why I should kill misled because I them. So I stopped.

    I hope that everything in your life gets better. Remember not to listen to mean people, and think about how excited you could be when you finish Osana! And there are literally millions of people who care about you and your game! So don’t give up!

    Hopefully this helped you a little bit at least!

  18. listen dude. You are inspiring a lot of people with your work, and even when there so much hate out there, and the noise inside of your head is getting worst and worst, do not give up. Don’t quit, tomorrow cannot be better if you are not there to see it, and not only our fans needs you and respect you, the people who criticize are in fact pulled over with your greatness. Do not do this for us or for then, do not do it for yourself if you don’t feel like it. Do it for Yandere-Chan. Your creation needs you and even when the day is at it’s darkness and cold moment, tomorrow will be another day to kill for sempai. Feel free to reach for help or to talk, you are not alone, and trust me, the ones who care for you and want you to live and keep with your legacy are a lot more than the haters. You are not alone… and everything will be alright.

  19. I am so sorry that you feel like this,and I sincerely hope you can find help (because it seems like you absolutely need some)and get better. I would love to see you manage to complete the game, but I really understand (and think most of us do, just the silent ones) if you can’t and you just need to let it go to work on yourself.
    Although if it helps, you have really inspired me to go for an artistic job and do something that I love. Thnak you for that. Take the time you need to feel better. Know that so many people really like you and your work!
    Good luck!

  20. YandereDev, I’m from India and I love your game. I’ve been supporting you since 2016 and me and my bunch of friends are very excited for your game’s release. You’ve got fans worldwide who love you. So don’t give up, YandereDev! Stay strong and all the very best! 😄

  21. What do you expect? You are developing game about psychopathic killer. What did you expect? That you attract reasonable adults or nice and clever teenegares across the world? You have naturrally attached to your person angry teenegares, psychopats and depressed adults. They need to realese their anger somewhere. They are unable to do it in real world, so they wanted to do this in your game. Yet, they have also decided to attack you, because you are not giving them what they want, so they want to realse their anger, derpession, humallitation on your person. Your community is not consisted of elite, or even mostly normal people, it is strongly consited of depressed outcasts and young kids looking for fun.

  22. Hi! i think that would be good to you to get a psychologist! I have one and they helped me a lot. I was depressed for years. I’m recovering now. You really receive a big amount of hate and you should take care of your mental health! One thing that helps me is just continue one thing at a time. Do your thing take a break if you feel down eat your favorite food do your favorite thing go to a psychologist and keep going. you can finally finish this commitment and go on. Things are gonna get better and you gonna be ok! Just stay here with us 🙂 there are very beaultiful things you need to know yet God bless you! Jesus loves you. I will put you in my prays

  23. These people make me sick. Harassing someone to the point where they are depressed? What’s Yandere Dev ever done to you, huh? Leave him alone! He’s already pushing himself to the limit working on the game, he doesn’t need you making his life worse. He doesn’t deserve that.

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